It seems I'm back, if only for the time being. I thought I left this for dead until I had a sudden urge to read my old entries. There are a few things I have to clarify it seems, so here we go.
    Matt and I shortly got back together prior to that last breakup I posted about. But then it ended for good July 22, 2008. Although I am not hopelessly stuck on one guy, because late October did I have a short (10 day) relationship with a guy named Tre'. I ended it, only because I didn't like him like I had thought. Now there is a new guy I'm liking and his name is Kyle. Rob is going to try and hook me up with him, but as to the progress of that; it's not going to work.

I am now officially a sophomore in high school. My schedule sucks, but that doesn't stop me from excelling in school. My grades are as follows:

Biology: A-
Geometry: A
French 2: A
Journalism 1: C+
Keyboarding: A
Phys Ed: A+
Hon. English 2: B+
Theology: A+

    I hate Journalism. You can tell I bet.  As I write this I also have to write an English Outline that's due tomorrow. This is just another excuse to procrastinate.
    My sister moved out Early June, and is currently living with my Dad and his girlfriend. She's basically living her life on her own seeing as how his girlfriend does nothing for her (laundry, packing her own lunch, etc.) But she's happy so whatever with that.
    My mom attempted to come back into my life after my grandparents requested for child support. She claimed she wanted visitation rights, but my grandmother said in front of the adviser that she was free to visit whenever she wanted, she just never did. Okay, so my mom is in tears over stupid bullshit. End of it all, everyones happy as shit and life moves on. As if. My mom visits me once, and disappears as predicted.
    My parents are still jackasses, and I've managed to remain close friends with Matt. I'm passing school with flying colors, I'm a hopeless romantic. I've figured out that I don't know my best friend at all, while making better friendships with other kids in my class. All in all, life is peachy (:

Sincerely, Alexis.

    Well I was recently looking back on my previous post and damn I don't think I really cared much for anything at all except my relationship. I've never seen my GPA so low, and me so not caring. Well getting on to what this is really about.
    My relationship with Matt ended on May 22, 2008. Three days after our 6 month anniversary. He was busted with pot, and stealing money, and lied to me about it. He's lost my trust, and for a while my friendship, but we're good friends again. It was mutual, and we both agreed at the time. Although, I still do have feelings for him but it's too late to pour my heart out to him now since two days after our breakup he's got another girlfriend already. I wasn't missed very much.
    School ended for me June 3, 2008. I did surprisingly well on all of my exams, I haven't failed a single one. I feel pretty proud of myself right now. Here are my grades for the second semester:

French 1: B-
Hon. English: B
Graphics 1: A-
Intro To Tech: B+
Health: B
Theology: B+
Science: C
Algebra 1: B

GPA: 3.1250

Although I did get two D's and those were on the Algebra and Science exams. The rest were either A's or B's.
    My birthday will be coming up shortly (June 7) and I'll finally be 15. Already I've received $40 from my grandparents which was spent today at Hot Topic. Tomorrow I'll be hanging out with a couple of my friends, and getting my hair dye for my strawberry blond hair. Friday I'll be going to my second concert ever and it's for Low On Air's comeback show. I blame Matt for introducing me to the band. And then my birthday I'm going to be having people over from 2pm to 8pm. That should be fun. So far my week is looking very good.
    As for more of my home life, my sister (12 years) has moved out to live with my Dad. After only one night of spending the night at his house she has it in her head she wants to move in. Well seeing how this was said and agreed to weeks ago she is already moved in and I shall be spending my summer as an only child for now until she gets the urge to move back in. Once she does, she isn't allowed to move back in with my Dad which to me is understandable because going from one house to another is just a waste of time. I occasionally go over and visit but only when I feel like putting up with my Dad's girlfriend, and my Mom always hanging around the house. My Mom, up until 6 months ago hated my Dad's girlfriend and now all of sudden is friend's with her again. I don't understand it. How can anyone hate someone so much and then be best friends with them after? Speaking of which my Mom has changed quite a bit since the last time I've seen her. She seems a little out of it half the time and looks a little psychotic. My grandma and Dad even agrees that something is up in her head. It doesn't surprise me.
    Well other then my parents manipulating my sister, the end of a 6 month relationship, and my birthday heading my way soon my life has been pretty normal. That is if you can define the above as normal.

-Alexis

Hey! Long time no entry. Aha there's so much I could write about right now I'm not exactly sure where to begin. I suppose I'll start with my love life, even though I'm sure most don't want to hear about. Matt and I have been on rocky waters ever since we got back together, I'm almost too afraid to get attached to him in case he pulls something like that again in a few more months. I really don't like the fact that we're just going to pretend the break up never happened either so technically our anniversary isn't the 19th anymore but oh well, it could be worse. My attitude towards people has changed greatly or in my opinion it has, if I recall back to when I first started dating him. I'm not as bad but I could lighten up once in a while. It also doesn't help me when Austin has to constantly remind me I'm not the same person I was in the beginning of the school year.

As for school goes, it's really getting difficult for me. I don't know if this has something to do with the fact that I'm dating someone or I'm just starting to slack off. My GPA is a solid 2.7, but only because I've got 4 C's. Atleast I'm not failing any classes. Right now I guess you could say I just don't care about my grades as much as I did in the beginning. As if anything at this point is good enough for me other then a failing grade. I know I need to try harder but I need some kind of motivation.

And as for anime I'm watching Clannad and SnS2 still, and I've finished Ouran Host Club, and I'm looking for a new one to watch. I haven't played any new games either, I almost want to get back into playing FFXII but it's pointless when I still have to beat FFX, I'm on the last boss and after that I'll be done. Again, I blame no motivation.

I love how I said there was all this information that I needed to post about but when I go to post about it I really can't think of anything to post.

-ash ketchum

I think I'm done writing here for a long time. I hate knowing that when I post something no one is there to care. You know? So anyway LONG HIATUS.

So yesterday was New Year's eve, and while I didn't make a post I did some other things. Usually I don't do anything special but since I have a boyfriend we decided to go to the movies, and see Juno (my idea to see this movie, but oh well). This would be our second date, and it was a lot better then the first. But of course, my parents and grandparents can't leave me alone on a date and of course had to fucking go. My Dad had to sit behind us, which left us to no type of physical contact, not even allowed to hold hands. I don't get why PDA is so bad as long as it's not a public makeout session. Well onto the actual movie, it wasn't all that great, but it makes you want to see it again. It's about a 16-year old getting pregnant by the dorkiest kid in school and giving it up for adoption. Though, as Juno considers him as just a friend they end up getting back together towards the end. So there you go. Don't go and see it because that's pretty much what the movie is about.

With my $50 bucks me and Matt ($75) went to Wal-Mart and I bought a studded belt,  Final Fantasy XII, and another game that I've never heard of but thought it looked cool was Shining Force EXA. FFXII is self-explanatory I just hope the fast action isn't hard. So yeah and I'll be getting $100 from Grandparents, and my Dad said $50-75, but with him you can't expect much of anything.

Short entry, but worth writing.

lex! at the disco.

No, I am not dead. Huzzah!

It's pretty rare for me nowadays to post two entries during the same month so this must be uber important. First order of business is that exams are coming up (Dec. 19, 20, and 21st to be exact) and I'm actually pretty psyched. Recently my Science moved up from a D to a C, so that made my GPA a 3.5 which isn't as bad as a 3.3 and not as shameful. So far here are my grades, again, since it was a while ago since I last showed them:

Algebra 1 C+
Theology A+
Pre-Eng Graphics 1 A
World Geo A
French 1 A-
Physical Science C-
Choir A+
Hon. English 1 B

Pretty rad, eh? Now onto what this entry is really going to be about. Today I was allowed over to Matt's house and then to his Aunt's to go to a family Christmas party (even though I'm not family, SHH!) and it was amazing. 1) My grandma actually let me, and I've gained back her trust now. 2) Because at the time I haven't met Matt's family, only his Mom. His Mom still seemed like she doesn't like me, but it's not true since she would have told Matt, maybe it's just the way she is. His Dad was pretty awesome, he seemed a lot nicer then his Mom and I enjoyed talking to him. His brothers Adam, and Aaron where ok. But I was warned that Aaron (19) was somewhat of a pedo, and that I shouldn't talk to him (Matt's advice) but hey how can I not talk to someone that likes the same games as me? Adam (22) didn't talk to me so he wasn't a problem. I had fun, and I really hope I'm allowed over to his house sometime.

lex! at the disco.

It's finally December. I didn't realize it until yesterday that it was Dec. 1st, but I knew before that when I was up at 2 A.M. Only 23 days until Christmas, and it won't be much of a surprise for me, but nonetheless I'm happy to be getting money because if it was up to my grandparents and family members they would be getting me presents, and I change my tastes too fast and it becomes chaos. Although, I'm pretty excited on what my boyfriend will get me. I'm thinking it's either going to be: tripp jeans, skinny jeans, or a ring. I'll be getting him different stuff for his tongue ring, since that's all I can really think of getting at the moment.

My grades have been good, and that's a relief because I was told if my grades started declining because of a boy, I wouldn't be allowed to have a boyfriend. I have two Cs, and the rest are As and Bs. Meaning my GPA is 3.5. Not bad, but not good. That's about third honors in my school. Speaking of which, I'm still pretty hated at school for dating Matt, but who cares anymore? I'm also in Drama Club. So yay.

Oh and I went to the doctors and apparently I have a weak case of Strep Throat, so I'm taking medicine for that but by the way I'm coughing it sounds like I'd have bronchitis. Besides that, my life's been pretty good. Now I'm off to take a shower.

lex! at the disco

This needed a major editing.

I was asked out today by Matt. He's goes to a different school from mine, and I know him because he hangs out with Maggie (one of my best friends at Stritch). I was hesitant because I know at the time he liked Maggie, because he's even tried to ask her out several times, she would always say no though because she's crushing on someone else. Even to this day (12/2/07) I really don't know if he loves me, or Maggie. He shows signs that he loves me, but those can be easily masked. I really hope the only one he sees is me, because it would hurt so much for him to still like Maggie. It really makes me sad when he brings her up when he's hanging out with me, that's like me bringing up someone I used to crush on.

Now, I'm starting to think I'm a bad girlfriend because I can't always be there for him when he needs me. Only because my grandma won't let me over to his house because of a bad mistake. Plus, I keep bumping his ear and since he had his industrial pierced recently it really hurts. I know it's an accident but I still feel bad. I feel bad for almost anything I do but that has nothing to do with the current topic. I'm just like that.

I really hope I can go over to his house soon, and my grandma will trust me again. I'm nothing but a major fuck up.

Midterms come out next week, yes already. I'm not too concerned, although now my Science is to a 'C' again, and not a 'B'. We had a test and I'm positive I failed, since the only thing I'm good at is quizzes and they're only worth 5 points. In Hon. English we had a test over 40 vocabulary words that we are doing for a lit. book we're reading (nothing interesting, don't worry.) What really made my day (yes things like this make my days, quite the nerd right?) was that on the test I missed 4, and there were at least 10 I wasn't sure about. Everyone else ranged in the 20s to 30s range ~ As well as on a recent Science test I scored a B on, which also made me happy because that was the first test in that class I didn't fail.

I need to stop procrastinating and start a project for English, and have it finished by Friday, so I don't need to work on it in class like she said she wanted everyone to do. Sorry, but doing homework during school doesn't float my boat. One thing I can't do during school is concentrate on anything other than what is being taught. If we're told to start homework I do it, but then get home and redo it because I don't like how it's written. One of my OCD habits of mine.

My school days (haha that's an anime) are pretty boring, there isn't any good drama at all and if there is I'm the last one to know and by the time it gets to me it's over. I'm pretty tired of hearing who my friends got asked out by, but said no to, because what does it do to me? Nothing except rub in the fact that I haven't gotten asked out once this year. But I've gotten pretty used to it.

Anime wise, I'm been watching Shakugan no Shana II, Clannad, Myself; Yourself, (don't consider me loli for this) Kodomo no Jikan. All have made it to episode 6 with the exception of Myself; Yourself because it hasn't been subbed yet. As far as games go, I'm getting around to completing FFX soon...oh so very soon (2 major boss battles to go, and I'm back to doing nothing again. It will suck. Very.) Well hope that does it for my November update. It took me over an hour to actually find what I was going to say. There goes my time for starting a project.

lex! at the disco.